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(1 glance | Look at me) [Monday September 04, 06 ] I just felt like writing again. So anyhoo - this Labor Day weekend I am watching the entire second season of The Closer. It's good stuff, really. At first Kyra Sedgwick's accent really annoyed the hell out of me, but around the 2nd or 3rd episode I got used to it, and now I kind of like it. I've also been packing while watching - no slacking here! I really have no time to slack - Joe and I are both working from Tues. through Friday and Saturday we are packing up and cleaning. Sunday we grab the truck and move our little hineys down to Harrisburg, OR, which somehow sounds more cultured than Junction City, which is teh address on my drivers license. Among other news, I think Joe and I have tentatively decided to move to Colorado once he graduates in the spring. Also, I am back on the job hunt. UGH. I hate job hunting. Plus, I love working for my current nanny family. But c'est la vie. Commercial break is over so I'm back to watching. Adios!

(12 glances | Look at me) *secret!* [Wednesday February 01, 06 ] I'm thinking about this ring for Joe - 99% positive. What do you all think? I want to inscribe "Mine" on the inside - when we first started dating, Finding Nemo was out and we would grab each other and say "Mine!" and so on. I thought it was something that wouldn't stick, but it has, and now it means more. So schmaltzy little story there for you all!

(10 glances | Look at me) [Thursday January 26, 06 ] I absolutely LOATHE the thought of a wedding now. If I have a wedding, and that is a BIG if, it's not going to be my day at all. I'll be putting on an act the entire day.

(13 glances | Look at me) I think I'm honestly going to cry... [Tuesday January 17, 06 ] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | The Killers - All These Things That I've Done ] ... between college (minor stress), insomnia (medium stress) and planning this damn wedding, I feel like I'm just about ready to breakdown. I CAN'T FUCKING HANDLE ANYMORE, PEOPLE! Whose grand idea was it to have one special day for a girl? IT HAD to have been a man. Seriously. Think about it - they go to a ring store, spend an hour (if that) picking one out, spend a few more hours getting everything ready and proposing and BAM, all he has to do is show up for a grand old party ALL about little old him roughly 6 months to a year later. Now the girl? Oh yes, society has dictated that we must be extraordinarily happy and "glow". (please shoot me... I'm begging you.) We then are required to obsess about whether or not that shade of mint in her future mother in law's dress matches the speck of mint in the invitations. Might I add that exorbitant amounts of money are to be THROWN out the window for anything with the word "wedding" in front of it. There is a 300% markup for "wedding" items. That napkin that you might pay $2 for a pack of 300? Add wedding and suddenly it's $2 for a SINGLE ONE! If I had my way, I would be married on Cannon Beach at sunset on September 18. Why? Because September 18th marks the 2.5 year anniversary of Joe and I being Joe and I. Why Cannon Beach? He took me there when I came out to Oregon the first time, and it is where I fell in love with him. Why sunset? It is my favourite time of day, when the beauty of the sun meets the stillness of the night. The stars come out and calm the day's troubles. The ocean, wild and turbulent, relents its passion for a bit, and the moon shines upon the water which twinkles back under its gaze. The ocean has always calmed me, and most likely always will. But there is something special about the Oregon coast, something that hold my attention a bit longer than other oceans. It is untamed and ferocious, unlike the vast majority of the world's coastlines. Joe doesn't get it. He doesn't understand that it wouldn't matter to me if it was raining, if it poured buckets the entire ceremony. He doesn't understand that it is precisely that, the weather's fickleness, the contrariness of it all that keeps my interest so unfailingly. Joe doesn't do it to be mean, he truly wants the best for me. He almost didn't propose on Cannon Beach because the weather was so windy and rainy. I wouldn't have had it any other way. This is what I love about the coast. Eloping is sounding better and better these days.

(Look at me) [Friday December 30, 05 ] http://www.livejournal.com/users/jrwedding/ Check out my wedding website! Engagement story - cause I know some of you were wondering:-) Joe took me to Cannon Beach on Dec. 23rd, where he had taken me the very first time I came out here, and proposed! It was very sweet... Then we went to Sadie's grandmother's beachhouse with Colin and Sadie and had a wonderful time! We went to Joe's sister's house for Christmas and told his family... they already "knew" but weren't supposed to, so we tricked them and I came in without the ring on - got quite a few looks at my left hand! Joe and I had to leave to go pick up some presents, so when we came back, I had switched the rings so that I had the engagement ring on. It took about 30 seconds for his mom to see the ring and start crying. She called his dad in and HE started crying! It was very sweet. I love his family and feel really at home with them and I'm SO happy that they accept me. I have heard too many stories about mother-in-laws from hell ;-) Dad's server is down, but I do have pics from Christmas of the two of us - as soon as it is up I'll post some of Joe and I.

(17 glances | Look at me) Yes... [Saturday December 24, 05 ] I'm engaged! More to come later...

(1 glance | Look at me) Roomba... [Tuesday November 29, 05 ] We now have a fucking Roomba. What is a Roomba, you may ask? It is this devilish circular vacuum that has a mind of its own. An evil mind, none the less. I went downstairs to get some dinner and heard an awful noise, kinda like someone was jamming a pencil into a pencil sharpener that was full. I turned around and its evil glowing orange eye light saw me and laughed. I swear, it laughed at me. Then it started chasing me around the kitchen bumping into random corners until I went upstairs. It's on now, Roomba, it's oooooon.

(13 glances | Look at me) My new ride... [Tuesday November 22, 05 ] I bought another car by proxy on Sunday.... ...it's an 1986.5 VW Scirocco 16v (first year they had them). It's been lowered on H&R's and Bilsteins and engine has been rebuilt, new belts all around, and new radiator. Also has a catback exhaust recently done. New tires and rims as well. That is original paint as well...  I'm going to go pick her up tomorrow and can't wait! Here are links to some better (and more) pics, but they are HUGE so beware. Back End Engine Interior Pic posted above with more detail

(2 glances | Look at me) Hmmm... [Saturday November 19, 05 ] I was studying tonight and came across this as I was programming... This function allows you to define the size on a matrix... but how many women would use this on their men? #define SIZE *grins*

(2 glances | Look at me) Easiness. [Wednesday November 16, 05 ] My trick to doing online course computer programs. 1. Wait until everyone else has tried it (ie 2 days before it is due). 2. Read all the hints and answers the professor has given to everyone else. 3. Assemble code. Easiest thing ever, I swear.

(11 glances | Look at me) Procrastination is key. [Sunday November 13, 05 ] Rawr. I swear, I am becoming more girly every single day. I find myself PMSing and wanting chocolate, wanting to decorate, wanting to shop like the dickens... (ok, so I liked that before.) It's actually not as bad as I though it was. There is a new Sephora store opening not too far away from me and I'm really excited to go check it out. I also cannot WAIT for Black Friday. Plus, Thanksgiving break is coming up and it's going to be fun. Joe was up this weekend and the time just went too fast. The nice thing about being away from him though is that when we do get a chance to see each other, I appreciate him that much more. I'm procrastinating doing my microeconomics homework right now. This week is going to be very full though, so we will see how things go in regards to schoolwork actually getting done. Grey's Anatomy and Desperate Housewives are on tonight!

(Look at me) *grins* [Thursday November 10, 05 ] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Ambrosia - Biggest Part of Me ] I just figured out what was wrong with my program! Woohoo! I get to see my honey tomorrow night! Yippee! I get to do NO schoolwork all weekend! Yay! Out of those three... I am really looking forward to seeing Joe.

(2 glances | Look at me) Midterms are over! [Wednesday November 09, 05 ] [ music | Enigma - Gravity of Love (Dark Love Remix) ] Too funny not to share! Phone call of a guy who witnessed an accident between 4 old ladies in an Impala and a redneck truck driver. Click here!

(40 glances | Look at me) This is beautiful and so true... [Saturday November 05, 05 ] -To every guy that opens doors. -To every guy that walks on the outside of a sidewalk so he can be the first to get hit by a car that careens off the road and push her out of the way. -To every guy that cooks dinner for her. -To every guy that said, "Sex can wait." -To every guy that said, "You're beautiful." Instead of hot or sexy, and truly meant it. -To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her. -To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick (And even a stuffed animal perhaps). -To every guy who has given her flowers just because she is feeling a bit depressed. -To every guy that said he would die for her. -To every guy that really would. -To every guy that did what she wanted to do. -To every guy that treated her like a princess. -To every guy that cried in front of her. -To every guy that she cried in front of. -To every guy that holds hands with her. -To every guy that kisses her with meaning. -To every guy that hugs her when shes sad. -To every guy who would give their jacket up. -To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe. -To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to be able to see her for ten minutes. -To every guy who actually understands that when she says she needs a minute, it really means ten minutes. -To every guy that would give his seat up. -To every guy that just wants to cuddle. -To every guy that will just sleep (no sex) with her. -To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what (even if she got fat). -To every guy who told his secrets to her with trust. -To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath. -To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one. -To every guy that believed in her dreams. -To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them. -To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams. -To every guy that wasnt just trying to get laid. -To every guy that actually listened. This one is for you!!! Joe, for all the things that you do that are on this list, I love you.

(9 glances | Look at me) Update on Vanessa the Bitch or Shondy the Hondy... [Monday October 17, 05 ] [ mood | busy ] [ music | Smokie Norful - Can't Nobody ] Yeah... she has 2 names. The first when she is being a booger, and the second when I like her. I went to the chiropractor today... that was interesting. It went well, I guess, he was really nice and relaxing. No word yet on the damage, but I got xrays done, and go back in on Wednesday at 10am. He cracked my neck and let me tell you... that was WEIRD. I didn't know I had that many bones to crack together in there! As to the car, I'm going to go all Office Space on you all, ummmm yeaaaah. I went to the body shop that Geico told me to go to to get an estimate but I didn't tell them I was using Geico and they quoted me $2400.. that seems a little low considering the amount of damage and the fact that he only looked under the bumper when I told him to. They all look at the car and think, " Oh, it needs a bumper cover and that's it..." Then when I tell them it is more extensive than that, they treat me like I don't know what  I'm talking about. I am almost to the point where I think I know more about this than they do. I probably do. I have a call in to the adjuster to see if I can pin him down on what I would get if I totaled the car, so we'll see. There is a BEAUTIFUL Corrado on Ebay now that I really really really want. http://cgi.ebay.com/ebaymotors/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&rd=1,1&item=4583186749&sspagename=STRK%3AMEWA%3AIT Check it out. *drools and lusts* I don't care what Joe says about them, they are gorgeous cars. He likes the more boxy look, I like the sleek look. Different strokes for different folks! He came up this weekend to be with me while the adjuster adjusted the car, which was so nice. Ever since he moved to Corvallis to go back to school, we haven't seen each other hardly at all, and I miss the crap out of him. We went out to dinner at Outback ( which is kinda *our* restaurant, the greeters and some of the waiters know us now!) and that was very relaxing. Actually, until he came up, my back had been killing me, what with school and the crash and what not, and just being around Joe relaxed me. Ok, speaking of school, I need to get back to studying, I've only got a B in Microeconomics (mainly bc I don't want to study for a class where the prof is a dick about an assignment being 1 minute late, and yes, it was ONE minute late!).

(3 glances | Look at me) [Sunday October 16, 05 ] Overheard at the grocery store today: 4 year old boy talking to dad: But that's not enough sugar... *pouts* Dad: You have the whole rest of your life to eat sugar in... there will NEVER be enough! *snicker* It's funny to hear stuff and realize I'm not the only one that thinks up weird answers like that. On other stuff, car is not considered totaled, but it is on the line. The adjuster wants to fix it so tha company does not pay out as much money, but it's been in a rear end collision before me, and was fixed, and I don't trust that fixing a second time is going to make it safe. That can't possibly be good for the metal. If I bring it into this one shop I got estimates from, Geico will total the car. So it's almost up to me whether or not I want to total it or not. Opinions? Should it stay or should it go? I'm going to the chiropractor tomorrow. Wish me luck, I've had headaches and my back/neck/right shoulder grinds and feels way out of whack. Doesn't hurt much, but is annoying. My right elbow is also out of whack too. Weird.

(3 glances | Look at me) Yay! [Friday October 14, 05 ] It's my mommy's 50th (shhh!) birthday today! Yay for her and for not looking a day over 35. I hope I inherit her good genes.

(4 glances | Look at me) My week. [Thursday October 13, 05 ] It has been somewhat crazy. Things just keep adding up. Sunday, I went down to Salem to meet Joe for lunch and he convinced me to come down to Corvallis for a bit. That was all fine and dandy, except I needed to study. So I finished what what I thought I had to do and started home. On the way home it occurred to me that I might have a short written assignment due for my Economics class at 11pm, instead of Tuesday as his syllabus makes it sound. I raced home, got there at 10:45pm and started typing like crazy. Sent the damn paper in at 11pm on the dot on my computer and got an email back the next morning saying that I was 1 minute late and I do not get credit. WTF???? Dick. Plus, I only got B's on the 2 quizzes I had done the night before, and I really wanted A's as they were open book. I was semi-upset over that and so when I got slammed from behind by an SUV-type on my way to pick up Emma Monday morning, it didn't bode well. I was stopped at a red light and she just didn't see me (the light there is normally green) and hit me doing 35-45mph. Those 2 semi horizontal pieces of metal in the 3rd pic are supposed to be welded together and straight. I took it to get some estimates and turns out that it has structural damage and will cost in the neighborhoood of 4k to get it replaced. My car is only worth about 5k to begin with. They will probably total my car. Then, I had to come into work on my off day and work for 7 hours, making a grand total of 11.5 hours for my "short" day instead of the contracted 3-7 hour day. The only reason this bugs me is especially this particular week, I need time to take my car places and fix all this insurance crap AND do homework on top of it. Plus, last week I had over 46 hours when I am contracted to do 35. Even working overtime wouldn't bother me as much if I was actually getting paid overtime, but I get paid at the regular rate until 50 hours. THEN, if it couldn't be a weirder week, we found out that we have mice. *shudders* This house is only freakin' 4 months old! Saturday night, I went out to a VW gettogether and my friend Darcy and I grabbed some crackers to snack on. I brought them back home and had them on my floor. The next day I picked up the box to have "breakfast" (Better Cheddars... breakfast of champions) and thought, "Wow, we ate more than I thought!" I knew Davod had seen a mouse downstairs and it was eating my pasta before in the cabinets, but we cleaned it all up and as he shooed it out of the house, thought no more about it. That is, until last night. I found a couple of droppings on the floor in my room and started hting around... and found a whole half of a box of crackers stashed under the head of my bed! *shivers* UGH!. My bed just sits on the box spring on the floor so it is conceivable it is a monkey mouse that it could crawl over me while I was sleeping. This morning I woke up at 5 and heard it in the room... and I have no idea where he went. THEN, I found out that my great-aunt, Myrle, died somewhat unexpectedly. She had breast cancer, but wasn't epected to go this soon. My grandma and mom were close to her, and it bothers me that I can't be there to support them, especially my mom. Mom always takes care of everyone else and never herself, and I wish I was there to give her a chance to grieve. So yeah. That is my week so far. Please pray for me, it's been a long month already, and this week isn't helping.

(1 glance | Look at me) To add to my last entry... [Sunday October 09, 05 ] ... I just went to the sink to brush my teeth and held the toothpaste under the water instead of the brush. Blonde moment!

(5 glances | Look at me) So tired... brain in fog... [Saturday October 08, 05 ] [ mood | foggy ] [ music | Everywhere by Moustache ] That has been the story of my week. Instead of working 35-40 hours, I worked 46. AND I had so much school to get done this week. I literally would work my ass off all day and then come home and work my ass off on homework til 12 or so, get up at 6am and start all over again. Now as to if I will keep my GPA at 4.0... that probably won't happen. I figure I can at least get A's and A-'s though. Not sure about the Calc class, we had a quiz today and while I understand the stuff, I wasted too much time on one problem in particular so I threw together an answer for the last one. Sucky because there were only 5 questions. I have to come in on Monday at 7:15am for work. Ugh. I miss my sleep. Normally, I don't have to drop Emma off at school on whatever Monday or Wednesday I work (I have one of those off a week, and one that I am supposed to work 3-7 hours). This means that I just pick Emma up at school at 12, which is nice for catching up on schoolwork. If I have to work 12 hours again on my "short" day though, I don't know if I will be able to keep up with my assignments. Either that or my sleep will suffer. I'm going to meet Joe in Salem tomorrow for lunch or something, which will be nice since I haven't seen him since last week and this whole long distance relationship thing is bit hard to sort out. I've been so busy this week I haven't had much time to even think about missing him, but really stressed and being around Joe relaxes me. I do miss him, it's just that I am so foggy in the brain that my priorities have changed. I've gotten back to the "FTFW" (Fuck The Free World) me, which is slightly weird, but comforting. It just makes it so I don't care that much about anything, and I miss caring when it comes to Joe. It's nice not caring about the schoolwork. I guess that is more of a resigned, "this is how it is going to be" thing though. Anyway, I'm going to go.. homework.

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